Sunday, December 18, 2011

My Christmas Reflection

It has been quite a while since I have made any updates, mostly because I am busy getting things all squared away for Christmas (Cards, gifts, shopping, wrapping... you name it), finalizing the FRG phone tree (ARMY business), and the biggest concern of mine lately... reading up on how to raise my toddler better so we can have a full-functioning family without much strain and preparing her as best as we can for the arrival of her baby brother. But there has been something heavy on my heart the past few days that I needed to set time aside to write about.

Christmas is a week away and I am in the home stretch of my pregnancy. It is on Christmas that we celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus... the day a special woman named Mary was chosen by God, give birth to His Son. In the beginning of my pregnancy, up until recently, I never gave any special thought to the resemblance of being pregnant (very pregnant) during Christmas and the special meaning it ended up having for me.

Here I am, in my 32nd week of pregnancy with my first son, Christian.

Not many of you know that I was actually not the biggest fan of the name "Christian" for our son. Dont get me wrong, I LOVE the name itself... but during the first trimester, when we first stared looking through names, it just didnt seem to fit in my "mind's-eye". During the last ultrasound, when we were finally told without a doubt that we were having a boy in my 21st week, something changed. For the first time, I saw my baby boy on that screen, with all his features and I knew right away that I was looking at "Christian". It was the only name that rang in my ear. Dan, who was always the one who liked the name the most (after all, he thought of it) mentioned in the the car that when he saw our little boy, he thought "he looked like a 'Christian'". I smiled when I admitted to him that I felt the same way.

It is hard for me to describe in words how I am feeling right now. Simply put, I feel like there is a great significance in being pregnant right now. Not only that, but I also feel like our little boy, Christian, will be a very special person to the lives he touches. Everything seems to be falling into place towards something bigger then myself and I am excited to see what God has in store for our son and our family.

I wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!!


Love,
Jessa

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