Though 2010 brought forth a couple of great events that helped Dan and I become the complete family we are today. It seems as though those were the only good things 2010 brought. With 2010 came false hope and joy... it brought unbelievable pain to people who are very close to me. Naturally we want 2011 to bring a glimmer of hope and light. Leaving 2010 behind is a bitter sweet "goodbye". When that clock struck 12:00am, a weight was lifted off my shoulders for our little family because I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel now. I look at my husband and smile as I say, "2011 is all ours baby" :)
Every event up until and during 2010 is now history. With 2011 brings a completely new chapter that will imprint us for the rest of our lives. The year of our family is now. I am so excited to see what tomorrow will bring but I will hold that excitement because I am cherishing all of the moments that I am living NOW. Ever since I can remember, I have always lived for the future... almost every thought I made was based around what was going to happen in the future. Last year and the year prior were years of anticipation: the beautiful love Dan and I shared and couldnt wait to grow with, the arrival of our daughter, Dan coming home from war and our marriage. Our love and lives together happened so quickly, I am looking forward to living in the moment now. We can finally breath in fresh air and not think about what happened yesterday... or worry about tomorrow. We have each other and our daughter. We have love and support from our family and the friends close enough that we call them family.
I guess this is the real reason why I am deleting my Facebook: Because I want to live in the moment with my little family. I want to live in the moment with my friends and family. I want every moment I live to be completely organic and real. I dont want Facebook to be the "3rd party" anymore. I dont want to think about the yesterdays. The only credit I give to the "yesterdays" is that they molded me into the person I am today. No need to relive it. And there is no room for regrets. Things that happened were there for a reason. We may never know the reason... but to know that there was a reason is reason enough and it is time to move on... just living in the moments that are given to us.
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